May Be Too Transparent

I have been told a few times that I am too transparent & that I share entirely too much information with people. Lately I am finding myself to be quiet the opposite. I never understood why my Mom was such a hermit but now I am learning I am more like her these days than I care to admit.  I have never been the type to completely shut myself off from the world. I have always been the outgoing, want to have fun, not stay home alone kind of girl. Today it really hit me that I am turning into a person I never wanted to be. I am now the person who doesn't really like to share my feelings with others, I feel when I do I am constantly being judged by others. I am turning into that "garage door down" kind of person.. I am starting to tell myself that my "safe haven" is locked inside my home with my family. I kind of feel invisible and safe here. No one can judge me, talk about me, leave me out of things, etc.. The only reason I am really blogging about this is for me. For me to see the person that I don't really want to be. This is something I am really going to have to work at but I am so thankful that God has blessed me with people that will get me through the hard times of life :-)