Monday, April 29, 2013

Life of a Miller

Good Morning peeps!!! Hope everyone is doing well... We are officially in the swing of craziness!!  I made the mistake of looking over my calendar & about flipped out over what all we have going on..  See all the little dots? This means we have something scheduled for this day!

Blue Devil Spring football kicks off today!!!  Dawson's 1st machine pitch game was scheduled to start today too but I just got a message due to the rain & muddy fields it has been cnacelled.  The rest of the week will be ball practice, gymnastics, church, ball games, and getting ready to go out of town.. I am super excited about our weekend coming up!! We will get to hang out with our families, friends, and I will be attending a very special friend's wedding shower!!! I always love coming home to visit!

We have been busy busy!! Tony and myself decided to take last Monday off for a date day with NO kids!! We enjoyed lunch together & a little retail therapy! I am super stoked about my new cute outfits!!!  We finished up Brooklyn's 1st science project. Brooklyn also performed in the High School Spring musical Saturday night. She was really nervous and excited. Bless her heart she was about a foot-2 feet shorter than everyone else so I am sure she felt overwhelmed. We got caught up on laundry for the 1st time in who knows when, got the house cleaned up, and I cooked dinner for the week. I am hoping a little organization will help keep me sain during Spring ball/Baseball season...

Well here are a few pictures from the last couple week! Hope everyone enjoys!!!

And remember to be an encourager, smile at a stranger, and enjoy your week!!!
Little Game of basketball

Not sure why he has a helmet guess his sister is rough!

Brooklyn ready to perform Do Re Mi

Coach & Myself

1st Science Project

New Outfit from Pink Coconut

Little partner in crime

Playing Blocks with Coach

Sweet Sisters

My 1st ice cream cone

Tuesday, April 16, 2013


This is such a sensitive subject and a little personal but something that has been weighing on my mind and my heart so I feel like I need to blog about this for my own self..  Just a warning this may be long because my mind races 90 to nothing on this subject.

This time 9 years ago I was 7 month pregnant with our 1st child a little girl who would forever change our lives.  I will never forget the day we found out we were having a baby. I had gone to the store and bought a pregnancy test and after 3 short minutes I saw 2 faint pink lines. My heart started beating like crazy so bad I thought oh my gosh this is the end I am having a heart attack. 7 pregnancy test later that were all positive I walked into the kitchen where Tony & Judy were cooking dinner with tears streaming down my face. All I could do was hold my hand out and ask what are we going to do? Looking back at Tony's answer now it was quite funny but I didn't find it amuzing at the time. He simply responded we are going to have a baby. My mind immediately turned to fear.. I can't do this I mean I am just a kid myself!  Then the fear of when people find out what are they going to say about me? I mean I was by far from perfect but I didn't want people saying things about me because here I am 19 years old and pregnant. Once the shock of finding out we were going to be parents wore off the excitement of the thought of becoming someones Mom was like no other.  Shortly after finding out we were having our sweet girl a song came out "There Goes My Life" and it is so true.  The chorus says it all: There goes my life, there goes my future my everything, there goes my life. I heard people say you will know what it is like to have your heart walking outside your chest when you become a parent & they hit the nail on the head with that statement!

I always knew I wanted to be someone's Mommy since I was just a little girl. No one could have ever prepared me for the emotions I felt on Wednesday July 7th, 2004 at 9:56pm. At this very minute I learned what true love was as I met my beautiful blue eyed baby girl. This little girl changed everything for me at that very moment. How could such a small little girl bring such a huge life change? That night everyone that we love was there to welcome this blessing into the world with us. I still tear up thinking about all the people who not only love us but her too!  So it was just us, God, and a new baby against the world...

Almost 9 years later we now have 3 beautiful children... Our journey as husband and wife/parents hasn't always been an easy one. There are days I have thought & even said from time to time I can't do this. I can't be everything to everyone. More times than not I find myself thanking God for the blessing of being a Mommy but also thinking they deserve so much than someone like me to be their Mom. Being a parent can be so rewarding but also a challenge. My oldest, Brooklyn Elizabeth, is a strong willed independent, smart, and sassy little firecracker. I often find we butt heads but everyone says it is because she is like my little mini me inside (Obviously her father on the outside).. Then there is our middle child, Dawson Andrew.. I find him driving me nuts because he is so wild and outgoing but yet he can be so sensitive, sweet, and funny at the same time. And our little caboose baby, Maycen Kate.. She is still so young but her personality is developing. She knows what she wants & she is going to get it, she is rotten, mischeivious and full of life. The rotten part is mostly my fault just because I am so grateful that God allowed us to bring her into this world. The worst scariest moment is hearing that you & your child could possibly die. I often find myself feeling guilty because I have yelled at them or been snippy with them because I am either stressed out, or tired, or often times overwhelmed, or just because they are being kids! I am always comparing myself to other kid's parents who seem to never yell at them, they are the perfect "PTO/Homeroom parent", or just seem to be the perfect parent to their kids. This also leads me to feel so inadequate as a parent because I want to be that parent! I want to be the parent who never raises their voice, who is understanding and patient, who is always involved everything at school, and the list goes on and on.. But in reality I am not this parent. I have to work a full time job, be a wife, be their Mommy.  At times I just feel so overwhelmed with the fact I am 2 1/2 hours away from my family, from help, from my life 9 years ago. I may not be the "perfect parent" in other peoples eyes but there are a couple things I want my kids to always know #1) God WILL be the center of our family before anything else #2) They are loved more than they will ever know even in the times I feel frustration with them

So with that I am often reminded that no I am not a perfect parent or wife or friend or person. There was only 1 perfect person that walked this Earth and that isn't me!  I read these verses today & I am working on striving to live these out.

Galatians 6:4 We love to want what everyone else has. Instead of focusing on ourselves and what God has blessed us with, we focus on what God has given everyone else.

2 Corinthians 12:9 And He said to me, "My grace is sufficent for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness, Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in y infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go; and when he is old he will not depart from it

My commitment is to teach my kids the important things in life. It isn't about clothes, or money, or sports, or who has a nicer house or a nicer car it is about training them up in the way HE wants them to go. To send them boldly out into the world to tell about what HE was done for us not what their Mommy did when they were 8, 6, and 1.

Monday, April 15, 2013

A little of this a little of that..

Ok so yes I know I can offically be tagged with the title worst blogger in blogging history. Life seems to get the best of me these days & it takes all I can as it is to keep up without adding anything else to the mix.

So life for us is busy, busy, busy!! Seems like we are NEVER at home except to sleep & my checkbook can prove it. I don't think we have cooked more than a meal or 2 at home the last couple weeks. UGH gotta fix that!  So you ask what has kept us so busy lately?!?!

Well last weekend we decided to make a quick trip to Hot Springs and go to the horse races & then a quick trip to White Hall just so we didn't have to drive back to West Memphis on Saturday. We had a great time. I only bet on 1 race and when I lost my $2 I was over it. It was funny though because the next 3 races after I lost my money I picked the winners & it would have paid good because of course they were the long shot.. Oh well atleast we all know I don't have a problem because I can't stand throwing away money.  Brooklyn went on her 1st mission trip to the Monticello Children's Home with the church & had a great time. We missed her but so glad she gets opportunities like this!

So during the week both of my sweet "big kids" have ball practice.. It just so happened to work out that we were scheduled for every night of the week. Brooklyn also had choir practice. She is singing with the High School choir on Saturday April 27th and is very excited about the opportunity. She also had her end of the year concert for 3rd grade.. Wait did I really just say end of the year for 3rd grade?! Where has the time gone?!!!! 

They also had their 3rd 9 weeks awards this week. I have to say I am so proud that we have 2 smart little people on our hands.. Dawson got the Citizenship award which made this Mommy so supre proud! and Brooklyn was All A's and 1 B and Accelerated Reader Award!!!

So this past weekend we enjoyed an evening on the porch watching the kids play & grilled some steaks/veggies before I had to go help decorate for a wedding shower. Saturday was a day of running. Got up & cooked breakfast for the family (which I never do!), then errands, and I was hosting a wedding shower. After the shower I ran home & laid on the couch for an hour to recharge then it was up again.. We promised the kids we would go to the rodeo in Southaven, MS.. They really enjoyed it!! Yesterday was spent at church, followed by a nap while Daddy cleaned up the boat, then took Brooklyn to the nail salon. She was relaly excited that she got to be pampered (massage and nails painted)..

So anyway that is a quick recap of what has been going on in the Miller house the last couple weeks. This week it is track meet, ball practice, choir practice, followed by more ball practice :-)

Weekend Fun

Dawson enjoyed Oaklawn

Daddy & Maycen Kate

My sweet pumpkin at Fisherman Wharf

Dawson batting practice

Such smart kids

Just chillin on the porch

1st time making muffin omelets

She is ready for the Rodeo.. Bigger the bow the better the Mommy

 Rodeo Bound

Love these kids!

Dawson dude did you eat a smurf?!